Forgiving someone is possible, Loving that same person is a gift from God.
2Sa 1:11 Then David took hold of his clothes, and rent them; and so did all the men who were with him;
2Sa 1:12 and they mourned and wept and fasted until evening for Saul and for Jonathan his son and for the people of the LORD and for the house of Israel, because they had fallen by the sword.
It was genuine grief that made David rend his clothes, Then from the depths of a guileless heart there poured forth the “Song of the Bow,” one of the noblest elegies in any tongue. That David mourned for Jonathan was understandable, he was his friend. That David greived for Saul who sought to kill him, escapes human comprehension.
Mar 3:22 And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem said, “He is possessed by Be-elzebul, and by the prince of demons he casts out the demons.”
Mar 3:23 And he called them to him, and said to them in parables, “How can Satan cast out Satan?
The Pharisees circulated this infamous charge-not because they believed it, but to satisfy the questions that were being asked on all sides. What they affirmed they knew to be untrue; but for selfish reasons they would not confess what they really thought. Yet Jesus was not upset, he sat down and exlained that what the Pharisees had said was not possible.
I pray for the grace to forgive and love with a Christ like love, its only when this happens that I will be free to love as Jesus wants me.