My God is faithful.

This post is the answer to a prayer I had made regarding my job. I have mentioned the circumstances in the first post of this blog. https://mygodspeaks.com/2017/11/09/first-blog-post/

Once upon a time, way back in 2001, there was a young man starting his career in networking. We met at my office, he was there to fulfill a network project needing implementation in my office. What I didn’t know at that time was the role God had for him in my life. We spent a lot of time together due to the project. I used to share with him some principles of life that had helped me cope with difficult circumstances. After I changed my job in 2008 I lost contact with my friend, as I started this new phase in life.

After a couple of years went by I started praying for a new job since I was beginning to feel uncomfortable in the job I was doing. I told myself, God would have to provide me the job and convince me it was him, if he did not do this, then I decided that I would stay in the current job till he did convince me that it was him getting me the job. I didn’t want to change my job just because I was uncomfortable. The years went by in the same job till I was approaching my tenth year of service. It was then that I lost my job. I took this loss as an answer to my prayer for a change in job.

Now the problem with this was, when I got a new job, that job had to be from Jesus. I had to know it was him giving me the job as I believed my loosing my job was an answer to my prayer. Getting myself a job by circulating my CV was not what I concidered Devine intervention.

It has been eight months since I have lost my job and eight months of waiting on my God. During this time I had to answer a lot of questions from well meaning people as to why I was not just applying and using the talents God had given me. Many could not understand waiting on God for a job, here I was not showing any inclination of moving my backside to get a new job. I never ran around applying to everything that suited my profile. In my heart I knew God will give me the job or would provide for me till I got one. I was even ready to accept not having a job.

Jesus never fails.

In the time I waited I was able to clear every loan I had, including my home loan this in spite of not having a job.

Then out of the blue last week I get a call from the friend I mentioned earlier. He now had a business of his own. He told me that he had been dreaming of me for two days and had to call me. When he heard I had lost my job he was even happier as he said he had wanted me to work in his company for a long time.

Now I have a job and the choice of what I want to work in. I was told come choose what I wanted to contribute to the company and do what I was comfortable with. An offer very rare.

Just send up a prayer thanking this God I serve for he is faithful and gives us more than we can ask for.

Conquering Sin

Prayers are good, sometimes prayers we make or even prayers someone else makes and which we repeat. Prayer draws us closer to God.

However having said that there is just a couple of things.

1) I cant loose focus and think a prayer delivers me from sin. A good point of view in normal situations.

2) I cant loose focus and think I have found a way to overcome sin by making or reciting a prayer.

Both give satan a victory as the focus in both cases is “I”

I have a weakness. A big one that is I judge myself. I would condemn myself if I had the chance. Every time I fail I do this to myself. This is because my focus is the sin..

God in his infinite mercy does not judge us this way, he knows us, our strengths, weakness and our failings. God looks to our willingness to be obedient and faithful and accepts us as we are.

Through the disobedience of Adam and Eve we lost our connection to God but through the obedience of Christ we have re established this relationship.

If I continue and persevere in obedience, God in his infinite mercy will deliver me from my sin whatever it may be. I need not struggle to rid myself of sin. I just do what I was created to do and that is follow Jesus.

I will know this when I do not look at the sin controlling me but am obedient and persevere in obedience, I will then be free to fall in love with God and the sin itself will loose its hold over me because of his love.

Its hard to explain, I’m no great teacher but this is something I’ve been learning the hard way I am yet to be able to put it into words properly.

Prayer

It’s been a while since I posted here, it’s not like nothing has been happening. Hopefully I will catch up and post what I have been learning here.

Today it’s about prayer I asked God to open my eyes so that I can share what I have learned and this is what he had to say.

Who am I?
I am my prayer. I become what God and I have decided together in prayer. When I cry out to him he guides me.

If I have not prayed I am what I decide to be, God has no place in me. When I cry out to him I tell him my plans and ask him to to bless them when my plans fail, I ask God why did he let that happen to me.

Answers

Time goes by yes, I progress in my journey and God answers prayer. He encourages me through my brothers in Christ. In prophecy through words of knowledge. Just thought I’d write down what is happening just a record that he lives.

So far I am selling my car. I get 85% of what I paid for it after six years. I will still have the car with me as well after selling it. Talk about having the cake and eating it.

I have an offer of a job completely different from what I have been doing so far. Can I do it? With him everything is possible. Waiting for him to work things out.

I got a part time job as well so some money comes in. Yes he provided I never looked for it. It came to me.

God provides he has shown me that he can. I’m eager to see where this goes.

I am growing in my relationship with my God learning as I spend time with him.

Yes he uses me as well. I look forward to the future I pray that I continue to be faithful I pray I don’t let him down. I’m quite capable of failing him without fail.

The picture I use above is a picture of a church which us over a 100 years old it’s no longer used, it’s submerged under water for part of the year. With all that it has not lost its beauty. That is what Christ does to me.

Forgiveness

Forgiving someone is possible, Loving that same person is a gift from God.

2Sa 1:11  Then David took hold of his clothes, and rent them; and so did all the men who were with him;

2Sa 1:12  and they mourned and wept and fasted until evening for Saul and for Jonathan his son and for the people of the LORD and for the house of Israel, because they had fallen by the sword.

 

It was genuine grief that made David rend his clothes, Then from the depths of a guileless heart there poured forth the “Song of the Bow,” one of the noblest elegies in any tongue. That David mourned for Jonathan was understandable, he was his friend. That David greived for Saul who sought to kill him, escapes human comprehension.

 

Mar 3:22  And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem said, “He is possessed by Be-elzebul, and by the prince of demons he casts out the demons.” 
Mar 3:23  And he called them to him, and said to them in parables, “How can Satan cast out Satan? 

The Pharisees circulated this infamous charge-not because they believed it, but to satisfy the questions that were being asked on all sides. What they affirmed they knew to be untrue; but for selfish reasons they would not confess what they really thought. Yet Jesus was not upset, he sat down and exlained that what the Pharisees had said was not possible.

I pray for the grace to forgive and love with a Christ like love, its only when this happens that I will be free to love as Jesus wants me.

Acknowledge him

Luke 10:39-40

39 And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching.

40 But Martha was distracted with much serving; and she went to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.”

Today I received a scripture during my time of prayer that highlighted what I learned during my study with God.

I learned what Mary did that which pleased Jesus. Martha’s business was good and profitable to her soul. But only one thing is necessary that is God be loved and praised for himself above all other business we may have.

This is what Mary chose. You really cannot love God and and be busy with the necessities of life. You can do this to an extent, however this would be imperfect love.

What Mary had chosen was to love her God with everything she had and just be in his presence this is something that begins here in this life and would continue in the life to come.

Proverbs 3:5-6

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not rely on your own insight.

6 In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

During my time of prayer I received this scripture, I knew immediately there was more to it than Jesus making straight my paths. What spoke to my heart was the words ‘acknowledge him‘ as the day progressed more light was shed on the topic when I read the scripture below.

Tobit 12:6 Then the angel called the two of them privately and said to them: “Praise God and give thanks to him; exalt him and give thanks to him in the presence of all the living for what he has done for you. It is good to praise God and to exalt his name, worthily declaring the works of God, and with fitting honor to acknowledge him. Do not be slow to give him thanks.

I now realize that I should acknowledge who Jesus is and what Jesus has been doing in my lif, not just want him to answer my prayers or answer questions that come to mind. Basically to do what Mary did when Jesus visited her home.

Hebrews 13:15Through him then let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that acknowledge his name.

One thing I need to seek.

Luke 10:42one thing is needful. Mary has chosen the good portion, which shall not be taken away from her.

I will wait on my God

Isaiah 40:31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

Doubts arise and with them questions. What do I place my trust in? How long do I have to wait before I do something about it?

What in me looks for answers? Why at all do I need to know these answers.

My mind has ruled my life for far too long it demands answers as if given power a solution would follow. It’s been two months now without a job and there are no plans in place. God has not spoken. This is something my mind is not used to. It demands answers. It demands action.

From within there is a cry “Trust in God” it’s faint but it is there. Something within says God works in his own time. I have learned over the last few months that my mind doesn’t do a great job when it comes to listening to God. The voice of my God is heard deep within somewhere my mind doesn’t control. For this voice I wait, when the time comes my God will guide me.

The scripture Isaiah 40:31 came out of the blue when questions arose. It lead me to search for God’s word.

Psalms 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the LORD!

Psalms 31:24 Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD!

Psalms 33:20 Our soul waits for the LORD; he is our help and shield.

Psalms 40:1 I waited patiently for the LORD; he inclined to me and heard my cry.

Psalms 130:6 my soul waits for the LORD more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.

Sirach 2:7-8

7 You who fear the Lord, wait for his mercy; and turn not aside, lest you fall.

8 You who fear the Lord, trust in him, and your reward will not fail;

Isaiah 25:9 It will be said on that day, “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for him, that he might save us. This is the LORD; we have waited for him; let us be glad and rejoice in his salvation.”

Isaiah 33:2 O LORD, be gracious to us; we wait for you. Be our arm every morning, our salvation in the time of trouble.

Lamentations 3:25 The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul that seeks him.

Now to the part of me which looks for signs convince me after reading these scriptures that I can do better without my God.

To my flesh this is my answer.

Micah 7:7 But as for me, I will look to the LORD, I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.

God is not in your mind.

Rom 12:2  Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may prove what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Some time back while praying. This verse spoke to me with reference to some obstacle I would come across in the days to come. The obstacle arrived and I was at peace.

For a long time I have been convinced that, its not my mind that would communicate with God, yes my mind was part of me and would have a role to play in my salvation, but its contribution would only be part I would also need to control it.

A good example of what is the role of the mind. When you go to a restaurant and order a meal your mind would choose the dishes you like by reading the menu and knowing from past choices what you would like. However, when the food arrives and you put it into your mouth your mind has no more role to play, the eating and digestion is taken care of by your mouth and other internal organs. In the same way with prayer and your relationship with God, your mind will read and interpret things for you but there are other parts of you that will process what your mind tells you. God can also directly speak to you without your mind.

However quite often my mind works more than it should. It always wants to offer me solutions and fixes for things it can never understand. So much so it exceeds itself. My mind offers me alternative solutions and alternate solutions to the alternative solutions, sometimes for variations on the problem I face. I may not be going through the alternative problems but my mind tells me to be prepared just in case I need a solution. To do this It presents to me all the combinations for the problem and what I can do just in case I need solutions.

So, if I have a disagreement with someone, my mind will tell me all the options I have, If the person I have a disagreement with says something I can give a him or her a specific answer, or if he or she says the something else I can still answer that with an answer from the alternative solutions my mind has prepared me for, I may even be thrilled with the answer my mind came up with.

Today’s reading was from Luke about Zechariah and Elizabeth and the visit of Gabriel with Zechariah.

In Luk 1:18 we find Zechariah answer the angle like this

Luk 1:18  And Zechariah said to the angel, “How shall I know this? For I am an old man, and my wife is advanced in years.” 

You see Zechariah was just like me, he thought things out and got himself into trouble.

Luk 1:20  And behold, you will be silent and unable to speak until the day that these things come to pass, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their time.” 

My mind like Zechariah’s mind it likes to understand everything I am told when all that is needed is faith, my mind does not believe in faith, it believes in logic.

I ask myself can my mind get me to heaven and I know without doubt that this will never happen because I do not have the logic needed, programmed into my mind. Also since my mind does not work on faith I doubt it would understand any angel, good or bad or even when God speaks to me.

Now you may wonder what could be bad in thinking things over. There is nothing bad except my mind takes my eyes off Jesus, and when that happens there is a high chance I may mess things up by doing something logical.

For example, when I lost my job two months back, one of the things Jesus told me was not to brood over what has happen, in other words, don’t let my mind dwell on the situation. If I brood I will end up in problems as I will not trust that my God will provide for me.

Another area is in forgiveness, when I analyze the situation when I disagree with someone, I invariably feel I am right, also my mind will convince me that If I did not do what I did or should do then something else would have happened, and I would have to react another way which would cause me more problems. To avoid the multiple problems my mind brings to light I would consider all the options my mind tells me about the person I am dealing with. I would then face him or her with the current problem and other hypothetical problems conjured up by my mind, I am sure you can understand the results. I know I will never be at peace. I have learned not to give my mind an option to analyze things, I just take the situation as it is forgive if needed and move on, I no longer permit the situation to stay in my mind I make sure my mind leaves the thought as well. I have found a lot of peace when I do this.

I feel we have lost the ability to identify Angels when they come to speak to us because we use our minds, I intend to try to learn what inside me can understand these things, I know my God is faithful and will lead me, till then I continue to wait on him.

Your Sins are Forgiven.

Luke 7:47

47 Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.”

Through Love I have the ability to have my sins forgiven. The more I love the more I long to love.

When Jesus called Mary and said your sins are Forgiven. It was not for her great sorrow nor was it her awareness that she was a sinner nor was it her meekness. Jesus forgave her because he saw how much she loved.

Can I have such Love?

Meekness and what it is as a Christian.

It’s been quite interesting studying the cloud of unknowing. The thirteenth chapter talks about Meekness.

The interesting part for me is learning that there are two types of meekness. The first is when meekness is caused by anything other than God. And the second is when it is caused by God.

The first is imperfect and shall fail at the end of our lives nevertheless this is good. The second is perfect and shall last without end.

Now what do we mean by meekness?

Meekness is the knowing and feeling of ourself just as we are.

There are two things that cause this kind of meekness.

1. The filth, wretchedness and frailty into which we have fallen through sin. We will feel this in some part while we live.

2. The over abundant love and worthiness of God in himself. And that it is not possible as we are to behold this nature of God directly.

Now God asks me where do I stand in regard to meekness in my life. There is a long way to go for me a journey I am beginning to get excited about, the more I learn about my God.