Time goes by yes, I progress in my journey and God answers prayer. He encourages me through my brothers in Christ. In prophecy through words of knowledge. Just thought I’d write down what is happening just a record that he lives.

So far I am selling my car. I get 85% of what I paid for it after six years. I will still have the car with me as well after selling it. Talk about having the cake and eating it.

I have an offer of a job completely different from what I have been doing so far. Can I do it? With him everything is possible. Waiting for him to work things out.

I got a part time job as well so some money comes in. Yes he provided I never looked for it. It came to me.

God provides he has shown me that he can. I’m eager to see where this goes.

I am growing in my relationship with my God learning as I spend time with him.

Yes he uses me as well. I look forward to the future I pray that I continue to be faithful I pray I don’t let him down. I’m quite capable of failing him without fail.

The picture I use above is a picture of a church which us over a 100 years old it’s no longer used, it’s submerged under water for part of the year. With all that it has not lost its beauty. That is what Christ does to me.


Forgiving someone is possible, Loving that same person is a gift from God.

2Sa 1:11  Then David took hold of his clothes, and rent them; and so did all the men who were with him;

2Sa 1:12  and they mourned and wept and fasted until evening for Saul and for Jonathan his son and for the people of the LORD and for the house of Israel, because they had fallen by the sword.


It was genuine grief that made David rend his clothes, Then from the depths of a guileless heart there poured forth the “Song of the Bow,” one of the noblest elegies in any tongue. That David mourned for Jonathan was understandable, he was his friend. That David greived for Saul who sought to kill him, escapes human comprehension.


Mar 3:22  And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem said, “He is possessed by Be-elzebul, and by the prince of demons he casts out the demons.” 
Mar 3:23  And he called them to him, and said to them in parables, “How can Satan cast out Satan? 

The Pharisees circulated this infamous charge-not because they believed it, but to satisfy the questions that were being asked on all sides. What they affirmed they knew to be untrue; but for selfish reasons they would not confess what they really thought. Yet Jesus was not upset, he sat down and exlained that what the Pharisees had said was not possible.

I pray for the grace to forgive and love with a Christ like love, its only when this happens that I will be free to love as Jesus wants me.

Your Sins are Forgiven.

Luke 7:47

47 Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.”

Through Love I have the ability to have my sins forgiven. The more I love the more I long to love.

When Jesus called Mary and said your sins are Forgiven. It was not for her great sorrow nor was it her awareness that she was a sinner nor was it her meekness. Jesus forgave her because he saw how much she loved.

Can I have such Love?

What do I seek?

Why do I pray like this? and what do I have after all this prayer?  It’s a question I have asked myself over the last few years, I have seen quite a few things happen in my life and have wondered why I believe in God, and why do I continue to follow him in spite of what I see.

I seek God, It is the God that made me, and bought me, and has graciously called me by name. It is this God I covert, it’s this God I seek. I am not an intellectual person, nor am I a spiritually gifted person, but I know my God, I know if I listen to him and hear him, He will take me lower and lower till I see the mind of his passion. Till I see the wonderful kindness of God.

I know my search for God from now on will now be a seeking of Love, in prayer I will overcome the unknown, and with a single word I will answer any distraction and unknowing.

I will one day see the face of God.

God is Sufficient

God does not come to me through curiosity of my mind or through my Imagination.

God is sufficient to fulfill the will and the desire of my soul.

We people have two powers.

  1. The knowledge power to this power God is incomprehensible.
  2. The loving power to this he is comprehensible to the full. This is the endless marvelous miracle of love.

God made us to love we however chose in Adam to use our intellect by listening to its prompting to experience knowledge by eating of the apple. I need to learn to live by love again and not rely on my intellect. My intellect only takes me further and further from God.

I also need to take good care about time and how I spend it. For nothing is more precious than time. As little time as is, heaven may be won or lost by how I spend this time. God won’t change the order of time for me because he is a just God. I will however have to answer for how I have spent the time he has given me.

If I love Jesus all that he has is mine.

God is the maker and giver of time. God is the keeper of time. I need to come close to him in love and belief. By virtue of this knot I will be a common perceiver with him and all that by love is knitted with him. I can use time justly by virtue of this love.

Luke 19:11-28
11 As they heard these things, he proceeded to tell a parable, because he was near to Jerusalem, and because they supposed that the kingdom of God was to appear immediately.
12 He said therefore, ” A nobleman went into a far country to receive kingly powerand then return.
13 Calling ten of his servants, he gave them ten pounds,and said to them, ‘Trade with these till I come.’
28 And when he had said this, he went on ahead, going up to Jerusalem.

This parable is not so much about how the servants used their talents it is about how they used their time when their master was away..

I always wondered why I had to give up things I was good at. I could not understand how I was NOT being permitted to use the talents God gave me. Today I know Jesus is showing me he wants me to spend the time wisely loving him and not get distracted by my talents.

I will no longer waste time with my imagination or my intellect. I continue to meditate on the cloud of unknowing.